Care and Feeding Meme! (alternate version)

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 I saw this one on passerine's journal and thought I'd do it because I think I like it better than the other Care and Feeding Memes I've seen and that it's more applicable to me.

• Mental Health

I was diagnosed with adult ADHD in high school and I've had some docs dispute it but my specialist says she thinks it holds water and that I exhibit most of the symptoms in a very obvious manner just from basic interactions with me. I've also been diagnosed with a generalized anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder. I have some undiagnosed learning disabilities that my doctors are kind of trying to figure out. I have auditory hallucinations quite frequently but no one can really figure out where they come from. I'm also a trauma survivor and it impacts me a lot.
I'm also transsexual and I know people debate this a lot and I don't entirely think it's mental so much as physical but I know the psychological aspect of dysphoria is a big thing that troubles me. I do however take testosterone and have been on it for nine or ten months now so I pass pretty well as male and the dysphoria has become more manageable. I'm medicated for all of my various psychological disorders and was hospitalized recently for suicidal ideation (and later actions) which was a big push in the right direction and I'm improving every day. The service dog I'm getting is also going to be a psychiatric service dog.

• Medication and allergies

Like I mentioned, I'm being medicated for my various issues. I'm not currently on anything for my ADHD actually. I was on Strattera for years but went off it recently because it stopped working and because my doctors wanted to see what medicating my other problems would produce without the Strattera in the equation. I'm on Prozac for depression, Klonopin for anxiety and Risperidone for my auditory hallucinations. I'm on testosterone as I said and also have Trazodone for sleep as needed but I don't take it much cause it makes me feel kinda shit in the morning. In terms of physical medications I have asthma so I have an Albuterol inhaler and it is a literal life saver.

Also if service dogs count as medication...

• Physical health

As mentioned above, I have asthma. It's not too horrible, but dust/pollen/etc and exercise aggravate it (which is unfortunate because I'm very outdoorsy and i like to work out). I also have patella femoral syndrome, my knees are fucked up. I basically have arthritis stemming from the fact that my kneecaps are crooked and rubbed the tissue away so they grind and pop and do weird things. I have prescription braces that kind of hold them in place.

• Food

I'm a vegetarian. Uh. Yeah. I don't know what else there is to say. I like food. I have some body image issues but I enjoy food. Testosterone did weird stuff to my body so my appetite exploded but I also am able to consume more calories in a day healthily so that's good. I like Asian cuisine a lot and I can be a huge princeling about what I eat. My grandparents like to spoil me with food when I come home and I've had some of the best food in NYC. But I myself am a poor college student so I end up eating a lot of lunchables and veg ramen.

• Alcohol/Drugs

I like to drink. I shouldn't drink on the meds I'm on right now but I was bad one day and it totally bit me in the ass so I'm not planning to do that again any time soon. One of my best friends is on the same anti psychotic (Risperidone) as me and warned me that drinking makes it less effective so I'm not going to indulge too much, maybe a few drinks here and there but no binge drinking, not that I ever did that much anyway.
I've smoked weed and cigarettes. I'm not a big fan of weed because it reminds me of a certain person I've bitched about before and also it just doesn't do much for me. I like the taste at least. I have to use a vaporizer when I do indulge because asthma. I like cigarettes too much and use them sort of as a coping thing when I'm feeling really fucking low which hasn't happened in a while. I wheeze a lot while smoking cigarettes because of asthma and it's unpleasant so I broke the habit before it even became a habit. I've been good lately.
Also coffee.

• Relationships/Sexuality

I'm not sure what my sexuality is. I thought I was gay for a while, thought I was straight, thought I was pan, then recently thought I might be asexual because I'm pretty heavily sex repulsed. I've realized that I'm sex repulsed because of bad experiences, not because of my orientation.

• Birthdays/Holidays

I really don't. I don't know. Because of my father holidays have always been kind of sucky at home. I've always been huge on Halloween but part of that is because I'm pagan (Wiccan, I am not fluffy and I will talk about this sometime, don't laugh at me) and celebrate Samhain. I like to meditate on the holidays I celebrate on my own, the sabbats/esbats. With my family I enjoy decorating for holidays a lot. I don't use any holiday as an excuse to get plastered or anything, I like quiet celebrations and appreciation for the season overall as opposed to just "FUCK YEAH PARTY".

• Contacting Me

My skype is betterweather. (with the period) and my Steam is krummavísur (no period). I am more often on Steam. I don't tend to add random strangers but if we've talked before and you want to talk more (or play some vidya games with me) there's a good chance I'll add you on at least one of those.