secrets

[togekissed]

 I feel like I come across as really secretive to people 
My best best friend in the world didn't know some things about me until like
Recently
And they're pretty big things
But I don't actively try to hide things from anyone like
I'm ashamed of a lot of things about myself but a lot of times people think I'm doing something bad or wrong and that I'm trying to cover it up that was my dad's assumption with all my queer stuff and mental health issues
I don't try to hide things or lie but it just happens and I think it's out of shame
I haven't told my mom I'm dating Thea yet even though she's said Thea sounds like a nice girl and has figured out that we like each other
And it's not like I'm hiding it because there's something bad about Thea or something bad that  I'm doing it's just
I don't know
I can't explain it I just feel this really strong need to not tell people things and it's not even bad things I've never done anything I honestly feel horrible about I don't do a lot of bad stuff, the worst I've done is smoked weed a couple times and I don't even care about that
I don't know what possesses me to hide things like who I'm dating

 

Also I really miss Thea I want to cuddle with her and Flossy and be all safe feeling and secure like I am around her yeah